Love-Love Relationship (Part 1) Summary 1) you GAINED a lifelong partner. 2) you LOST a possible lifelong friend. 3) it was just for FUN.
-------------------------------------
basically, that's my conclusion for this relationship thing that some may call a "complicated crap of feelings".
it don't look so complicated after all, provided feelings and emotions are removed.
emotionally...
the best point of relationship is that everything seems to be smooth and happy with just one small gesture from him/her. it'll make your day! or your week. even just a smile or a pat would do the trick, your mood just fly a few metres into the clouds. just being beside him/her enough to calm you down sometimes too.
the worst point of relationship, ironically, is that everything seems to be wrong and upsetting with just one small gesture from him/her. affect your day, and normally your week too. just a word, an expression, a wave of that hand nonchalantly. sends your mood down to the deepest, lowest pits.
i admit that i do not really have that much of a history to back up my points, but hey, i watched many TV and real-life one to learn bits and pieces ok.
it's always fun to watch stuffs from the sideline, not getting too involved, but maybe a bit unfair for getting too un-involved. but these are not my problems to begin with. lols.
ignorance is bliss.
a little more elaboration of points...
-------------------------------------
1) you GAINED a possible lifelong partner.
i envy those who found someone they can "see as their future spouse".
maybe i don't know about the small/big quarrels they had when they're alone, but being able to be TOGETHER in public and be SEEN as a loving couple is just so admirable.
people just seem to be expecting a wedding invitation soon without doubting much! the "eh, finally ar!" reaction.
it's different from just becoming a couple. when it all just began, the possibility of splitting is still high. because, the closer you get to someone on that level, the more the flaws you will see.
it's admirable because both parties had (more or less) accepted that difference, or at least came to compromise. flaws that maybe deadly you know. it's not unusual people get freaked out or damn irritated by some small habits you see only when you get closer.
you may say couples are together because they have something similar... like a hobby or interest. but i want to add that couples STAY together because they both fell in love with what the other have but they themselves lacked.
maybe, he's attracted to her because of something at first. maybe, she's attracted to him because of something similar. eventually, they'll realize no matter how similar they are, there are still subtle differences that may irk the other party to their grave.
same same but different. yea, the same old cliche people get tired of listening.
eventually, he'll grow to love that difference. eventually, she'll grow to admire him for that difference. it's something that irks them because subconsciously they are jealous of each other.
that difference made them more in love with each other. that difference added the SPARK to the aged relationship. that difference kept the OLD FLAME going!
maybe she's a clean freak, maybe he's a super messy pig. she'll clean up after him, house looking as neat as a display flat. and he'll messed it all up again, as messy as a pig sty.
she'll get mad of course, she'll nag. he'll get tired of it for sure, he'll argue back. "I'll try!" "You better!"
but hey, if everything is so damn neat, where's the warm comfort humane touch in the house? do you still call it a home. on the other hand, if everything is so freaking messy, where's the clean refreshing feel you get once you get home from work? can you still call it a home?
people do not leave in a pig sty nor a display flat.
people just don't see it both ways when we're in the story.
people have difficulty understanding "Cherish before you lose it".
people have no idea of "this is precious to me..." till they lost it.
. . .
and that carries us to the second point in the "tornado of emotional drama".
2) you LOST a possible lifelong friend.
people have to LOSE something to realize how important that is.
like, for the first time in so many years, how important that "small-insignificant-ipod-i-threw-at-my-sidetable-everyday-subconsciously" is to me till i NEARLY lost it. embarassing to remember crying so dreadfully after losing and finding it. and the bad temper that followed.
and how important that clear pimple-free face was to me before it JUST got infected my these irritating spots of red. i was actually proud of having minimal pimples. as compared to my sister especially.
OFF POINT! ok, lets go back. so... where were we?
it's always months after the "IT'S OVER!"and"FINE!" than people realized they had just ended a very envious relationship. Friendship or Love alike.
to me friendship and love is ABOUT the same. having a friendship with me means that you're somewhere within MY 3 circles of comfort zone. having a love-love relationship with me, means that YOUR name is beside ME in my circle of privacy in that 3 circles of comfort zone.
in short, you are suppose to eventually know (alot) more about me than most of my friends know, depending on how long we are together... and the trust level is higher than normal, the doubt level is also higher than normal. the possessive level and frequency of seeing me mood swing is also a lot higher.
so, i see you as a FRIENDwho just happen to be the one i MIGHT choose to spend the rest of my life with. commonly known to the public as my "BOYFRIEND".
if that works out fine, we're classified under point NUMBER1 up there.
if that do not work out, we're just back to friends. my most prefered choice, most logical, most rational, most peaceful.
HOWEVER! if that do not work out, possibly due to a BAD BREAKUP or if it's just YOU BEING A PRICK no matter how we broke up, we're here. point NUMBER2.
if it was due to a BAD BREAKUP, i'll eventually get over it. and you'll probably too. it'll take some time, but hey, i don't mind being friends still (after i get over it - selfish but so? i'm the queen!). but not too close as before. having those awkward moments or bad memories point perhaps. or maybe we're just suddenly think that everything was a joke, and get to the fact that we were never meant to be together and laugh it off.
but if it was YOU BEING THE PRICK, you will never be forgiven. unless you do something really NICE to extinguish that disgusted anger i will feel towards you THE PRICK for being a PRICK because you BELIEVE you should not be friends with me after a breakup. unreasonable pig who don't see reasons.
if you have your reservations, you can just tell me. but if you THINK THAT I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND AND DON'T BOTHER TELLING ME AT ALL. OF COURSE I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND BECAUSE YOU NEVER BOTHER TO EXPLAIN! get the drift?
maybe i say it sometimes, "you probably wont understand even if i tell you". but i DID try to explain as best as i could to you after that what. HOR?
anyway, the bottom line i want to get across is, even if the relationship don't work out. it is still possible to be friends. as long as you are not a prick.
3) it was just for FUN.
last point. it was just for fun.
i guess that explains it all?
it was just a fling.
more elaboration?
i'm not serious about you. never was, never will, never ever.
get the point now?
sounds like a bitchy slut. but hey, there are stuff like this going around in this evil corrupted world filled with backstabbing twofaced slimy dirty humans. even if it did not show at all in this whole lifetime, you must KNOW it is somewhere in you.
buried deep. waiting just for the trigger, the key, the word, to set it free.
the cruelty of humans. aah, reminds me of the song from sweeny todd. the one that started the movie.
(a small part of it)
There's a hole in the world like a great black pit and the vermin of the world inhabit it and its morals aren't worth what a pig could spit and it goes by the name of London. At the top of the hole sit the privileged few Making mock of the vermin in the lower zoo turning beauty to filth and greed... (and one of it that went) There's a hole in the world like a great black pit and it's filled with people who are filled with shit! And the vermin of the world inhabit it... But not for long... They all deserve to die. Tell you why, Mrs. Lovett, tell you why. Because in all of the whole human race Mrs. Lovett, there are two kinds of men and only two There's the one staying put in his proper place And the one with his foot in the other one's face Look at me, Mrs Lovett, look at you. No, we all deserve to die! Even you, Mrs. Lovett, even I. Because the lives of the wicked should be made brief For the rest of us death will be a relief We all deserve to die. going off point alittle... really love the movie, why? because of the evilness perhaps. or maybe it showed one of the worse face of humans. not that worse i must say, but one of it. arrh, reminds me, i need to buy the movie and its soundtrack next month.
WE ALL DESERVE TO DIE! even you, even I.
but where do we go after dying? that's for god to judge isn't it? i wish i'll be with him though. despite that dark part of mine.
----------------------------------------------
anyway, that's all for my analysis on what relationship can result to.
