because whatever they do, they MUST have an ulterior motive behind it.
but after that incident, my views were changed drastically...
I am the one that is SELFISH, EVIL, and UGLY.
All my thoughts are of myself.
All my thoughts are about disgusting stuff.
All my thoughts boils down to what good would doing it be for me.
It goes in a circle, can you see?
"Friend" is unhappy ----> "I" am unhappy ----> because "I" cannot enjoy my time with you ----> SO, i try to help ----> because "Friend" would be happy ----> SO, i can be happy too
why did i want to help you? BECAUSE I CANNOT ENJOY WHEN YOU'RE UNHAPPY!
for me, it's all about me. it's never about you.
BUT WHY!
why for you, it's never about you.
I see no benefit for you if you did that.
I see you never thought about SELF when you did that.
Your heart is beautiful although you may not be physically.
I would NEVER had went that far for someone that is not "ME".
I would NEVER had did that if it's not for the hand pulling me.
I would NEVER had did that if thoseeyes are not staring at me.
SOCIAL PRESSURE!
I'm conforming to the EARTHLY values!
I'm doing it because I need to fulfill EXPECTATIONS!
I'm doing it because if I don't, I'LL BE OUTCASTED!
Humans exist for a reason.
My reason is to be the shadow of people so that they can shine...
